siap!

yeayyaah!! heppinya dalam hati when hubby told me that he's completed his project n dah submit! alhamdulillah...finally siap jugak...he s been working on that project for quite sumtime... almaklumlaa part time jer...its definitely a struggle for him since early dis yr utk membahagikan masa between his part time classes, out-station jobs, family gatherings, n his demanding wife!

i really appreciate all his hardwork...
so i would like to dedicate this entry to u....

thnx sayang sebab.....

1.u still manage to be by my side despite ur crazzy schedule...

2.sayang tak rimas nak bawak bini ke hulu ke hilir ikut out station..

3.sayang izinkan bini berenti keje yg menyesakkan dada walaupun still tak dpt keje lain agi(im still working on it...kite doa sesama k)

4.u alwiz told me how lucky u are to have me as ur wife (sangat flattering...walaupun dah ulang byk kali...mmuaahh)

5.selalu balik kampung bini n pandai ambik hati mentua n sumtimes menimbulkan rase cemburu coz rase cam ma n ba is more happy to see their menantu than their daughter...uhuhuh..(i know u did everything dengan setulus hati tanpa bertopengkan lakonan!)

6.pandai buat keje-keje umah yg laki patut tau buat ie. cuci kipas,panjat memanjat,drill mendrill, piping, minor electrical faults,mencangkul, membaca manual barang2 baru beli, membetulkan komputer yg dah tak berape nak betol...etc...

7.sangat bersabar dgn my perangai! (i promise im gonna b a good gal kkaayy)

8.sebab selalu belanja kalu g shopping!

9.sayang selalu berterima kasih when i cook...n puji watever i cook walaupun its only ikan goreng..

10.sebab sayang pandai bawak bini bergaul dgn ipar duai n i do feel that ur siblings are mine too...

11.for being sempoi...redah je pape...be it makanan,baju or places to go...not fussy at all! (biar wifey sorang fussy dah laa k!)

12.for melayan mengarut n gelak to my lame jokes seperti when u ask me pastu? n i said pastu three laa...n when u ask me where i am (on d phone mase tgh drive) n i said kat belakang kete WAC 211... others would hav been annoyed to d jokes sbb dah repeat zillion times!! uhuhu

13.for being a perfect gentleman when u need to be.....

14.for being a nottyboy when theres a need for u to be!

15.for letting me go on menulis blog ni...ehehe..

16.for still menyebabkan rama-rama beterbangan di dalam perutku!

17.for reading this blog (eheheh....i honestly wonder when will u read dis...takpe sayang...i know ur bz kumput duit)

.....n many many more!! but i gotta stop now...u juzz sms me telling ur on d way back...so i wanna go bersiap n look nice for u k....mmmuuaaaahss

LOVE U SAYANG!

syukur...

alhamdulillah...saya bersyukur yg saya seorang manusia yg mudah bersyukur...maybe bcoz ive been blessed all my life..ive been surrounded by people dat i love...i alwiz get things done d way i want it to be done...n i have alwiz hold to an anonymous quote - dismiss the fantasies in favor of reality that suits us just fine....

maybe ive been lucky all dis while.... memang saya pernah melalui some bad experiences...problems...but nothing huge....it does scare me sumtime when everything seems to be so right for me...i hope that i will remain grounded...saya tak mahu leka dan mendabik dada mengharungi kesenangan hidup... mungkinkah saya akan diduga dengan teruk suatu hari nanti...
sesungguhnya Allah tidak akan menduga kita melainkan dengan dugaan yang mampu kita hadapi... wallahualam...

Allmylife: Roommates Sepanjang Hidup Saya

bedroom is where we're suppose to be most comfortable in....we're suppose to have our own space here...our own sanctuary... boleh tidur nyenyak n selesa... bole create our own rules on what can n cannot b done in dis little space...bole deco bilik to our own taste.. nak sepah ke...nak kemas ke....nak melalak, memekak, berangan, menangis, bertafakur, menari macam org gile, makeover diri sendiri, fool around depan cermin...semua ni bole buat dgn selesa dalam bilik tidur kite.... but actually...in reality dats not alwiz d case...bcoz selalunya ade je limitation kite sbb ade insan bernama ROOMMATE yang berkongsi ruang kecil yg kite ade ni!

kalo kite betul2 rapat n bole get along juz fine dgn roomate kite...then there shouldnt b any prob...kite still bole do all d things i mentioned earlier n still be buddies with our roomies...its really good if we're buddies with our roomies..coz dielah tempat kite bole cerite n mengadu n really b close with coz kite rasa kite dalam comfy zone kite n selesa untuk luahkan everythimg....its like having a slumber party everynite! tapi wat will happen if we juz can never get along wit our roomies! ape je die buat kite rase menyampah...personaliti dia ngan kite memang a total clash....hancus...kes ini dinamakan roomate from hell! ade jugak kes yg bestfrens decide nak jadi roommates...but in the end bcame worst enemies! uhuhu

saya tak taulaa if there is any such thing as World's Roommate Day...tapi kalau takde mmg patut dimulakan coz for me all my roomates selama ni mmg ade beri kesan dalam idup saya...so today i wanna listdown senarai "Allmylife: Roommates Sepanjang Hidup Saya"


Age: 3-9
Roommate: kakak(our local maid) and kaklang(sister 3yrs older than me)
my earliest memory starts when i was 3yrs old... i remember that i was really close to kakak... i also rememba how she was alwiz on my side if i fought with kaklang(we fought alot back then..ehehe)kaklang usually goes to sleep early n i will stay awake with kakak...sumtimes while reading d URTV! or watching indonesian scary movies on tv (slot Dari Seberang!)...ahaha...

kakak loves to tell me her childhood stories...d kampung games she played...how she could use real knife when playing masak-masak...n how she can sleep in a pondok built with sticks n pieces of remnant clothes sewed back together when playing pondok-pondok...she told me bout d kampung ghosts that has weird names like 'antu kopek lanjut' (i still can remember how i imagined d ghost looks like!..uhuhu...scarryyy...)..she also told me bout jin n bomoh..kakak is also responsible for telling me about how girls will get their period as they get older....

sumtimes she brings me for a bicycle ride to my aunt's house...so i can play with my cuzens while she gossips with their maid! i rememba how she was crazy about penyanyi sensasi at dat time-naser wahab!ahaha... she even told me bout this guy that she alwiz call using our housephone when ma n ba is not home...she even sumtimes pass d phone to me n refer to me as 'anak kite' when talking with him! i remember following her to a park to meet up with a guy...ahaha..notty nanny! i dont recall ever telling ma n ba bout it though!

nway kakak chose to go back to her kampung after 11 yrs serving for ma n ba...i was really sad... never thought that she would go back for good this time...she told she wants to work in a bread factory n start looking for a husband..i think she was in her late 20's when she left us... miss u kakak...thank u for all d fun dat we had n for everythin dat u taught me...

i was then left to be roomies with my sis kaklang... i alwiz told on kaklang! sikit2 nak mengadu kat ma...we fight alot n ma alwiz said that we're fighting macam berebut nak kawen ngn raja pahang! or was it johor! but seorang raja tua laa..scary! but i guess this is when i actually bonded with kaklang... she start to tell me secrets! like bout her crushes...n told me bout her frens..d songs that they love..what she often talk bout with her galfrens....n i alwiz think im cool at school coz i know wat older galz are talking bout...uhuhuh... (why do young galz alwiz wanna do wat older galz are doing but alwiz think they are young when they're actually getting older! ;p) slowly i didnt feel d 3yrs age gap between me n kaklang n she is very much like a fren to me...

Age: 9-17
Roommate: busu (youngest sister 4yrs younger than me)
ba then got transferred n we all moved to kl... here, kaklang got a room of her own... i felt it wasnt fair coz i had to be roommates wiv busu! she's been sleeping with ma n ba all dis while...anak bongsu yg tersangatlaa manja n dimanjakan!i remember how disappointed i was when she was born a girl! we all expected a boy sbb dah scan boy...ahaha...at dat time scan tak cukup canggih kot...

nway i dont have much memories of d first few years we were roommates except for when she was having trouble falling asleep...knock my parent's door n slept there till morning... 4yrs was such a big age gap at the time...

like i was with kaklang...hmm...i mean worse than i was with kaklang...busu couldnt keep her mouth shut n told ma everything!! tiap2 hari mengadu...n she had this puas-hati-smile when ma scold me... n i can do nothin bout it sebab if i hit her or call her names..then she would merepot again n i will kene marah even worse!

by then i was really close to kaklang n i alwiz lepak in kaklang's room to get away from busu...n sumtimes we locked d door sbb takmau bagi busu join...ehehe...

bilik kali ni is somewhat different bcoz bfore this saya tak penah kene kemas bilik exept for kemas katil je...tapi now i have to b responsible mengemas...menyapu...dust...which i really2 hate...n busu dont have to do d cleaning coz 'die kecik lagi'...i thought it was unfair coz die pun suka buat sepah! nway dis room is alwiz alwiz messy! n ma said she will get sesat in this room if i clean it up! huhuh

i like to sleep with d lights off while busu takut tido dalam gelap(ngade-ngade kan!) so she alwiz goes to bed early with d lights on n i will go a bit later n turn d light off... sumtimes if we wanna go to bed at d same time, i will make her do things for me n barulaa saya bagi dia tido dalam cerah...kalo die disagree wiv me...sorrylaa...bergelaplaa jawabnya...ahaha...at least i got to use my authority here..uhuhuh..

i guess it was when i turn 16 n busu was 12...that we started to get really close...busu dah besar...dah nak masuk sekolah menengah...we really bonded...n sumtimes we slept together on her queen bed ( i got a single bed) n chit chat all d way till midnite... we even get crazy sumtimes singing n dancing! huhuh...both of which i really suck at but i will do comfortably in front of her...with crazzy robot dance that she still makes fun of me till these days...ahaha...she was actually really fun to be with as i started to learn to love her.... (instead of alwiz hating her manjaness!)

Age: 18-19 and 21
Roommate: Fifi
then there was uni....all dis while my roomates have been family members..n never a stranger.. suddenly...my first time away from home...n jeng jeng jeng... i got a stranger as my roommate! uh oh...i thought it was gonna b a nitemare!

at first impression, fifi seem to be a naive n alim kampung gal...she wears conservative clothings..that i thought makes her look older...she uses tomatoes n banana peels as part of her beauty regime... eats very little coz she wanna lose weight...believes in old superstitions such as we should sleep with our head on the opposite sides so that the spirits couldnt get to us! ahahah... but slowly i start to accept her juzz d way she is...

we were also coursemates n we attend d same classes...but i was glad she wasnt d clingy type... she mixed with others too...n so do i...we even study differently... i would like to study late at nite n she prefers waking up in the wee morning to study...she even record her voice when she studies...ehehe...though we are very2 different in many ways...we juz love to share our thoughts... n we are very frank with each other... she knows how i hate d smell her mandi rempah, so she do it early in d morning bfore i got up... i knew she's very sensitive to talcum powder so i started using compact powder instead...

fifi alwiz had my back n i had hers...we bitched bout other gals, talked bout our boyfrens, shared our views on life, complained bout each other, talk politics, cried together in stressfull events, shared our maggi mee, had our mishaps...but nonetheless she was my best girlfren when i was in uni...

Age: 20
Roommate: Nana
at the end of each semester, when we applied to stay in college, we were suppose to write to the office to request for roommates...i wanted to still be roomies with fifi but we failed to write the letter...and i end up being roommates wif Nana...

this is one roommate which i dont really connect to once we became roommates...we were otherwise quite goodfrens...maybe its juzz me...but i could not stand this one..i will not get into so much detail with dis one coz bende yg lepas tu lepas laa...but juz to give u readers some ideas on how she was like..

she was loud whether singing, talking to me or even on d phone...uses my bowl n washes it a week later... alwiz forgot to bring her roomkeys... a drama queen...n would continue talking bout herself no matter how much i hinted that im in the middle of reading my book n would love to continue reading...uhuhhu...its all d small stuff that really got to me..

was quite lucky dat she alwiz come back to our room really late at nite, so i would already b sleeping or pretend to be asleep so we dont have much to talk bout...ehehe... i thought she was actually a fun person to be with if n only if jumpe kengkadang saje...eheheh...sorry nana...i know i wasnt a good roommate to u too...hope u r fine no matter where u are

nway i was her roommate for only a year...me n fifi wrote the request letter this time... n we were roomies again when i was 21....

Age: 22-24
Roommate: Me, Myself n I
it was my final year at uni...it was quite a difficult decision to make...but i chose a single room! i knew i would miss Fifi...but im glad she understood my decision...i needed my own space as we would really be busy with our final year project...so it was my first time on my own...lonely sumtimes....but it felt good!!

by the time i finished uni, my parents shifted again to our new home....where i got to hav my own room..n tamatlaa riwayat roomates sepanjang hidup saya...(buat sementara waktu jer..coz then i got married!!)


Age: 24 till now n hopefully smpai bile2!
Roommate: Hubby
now i have my hubby...n he is d bestest...coolest roomate i ever had!!!! and i can do all dat i described in the first paragraph of this post in our sanctuary! mmmuaahh... ;)

*semua nama bukan nama sebenar ;p
panjangnye entry ni!!

too quick to judge

never thought id start writing blog but i juz finished watching oprah dgn mata yg bengkak sebab meraung2 kerana tersentuh dgn kisah yg dipaparkan...i was inspired by a story about the late Richard Carlson who wrote Don't Sweat The Small Stuff. maybe saya sgt ketinggalan sbb tak penah dgr bout him sebelum ni...but he's written a series of Don't Sweat books...ive gotta find his books! im also inspired dgn beberapa org blogger muda sejak akhir2 ni... ive been following a few blogs yg sangat-sangat menarik...maybe i'll link them some day...
(though i have another blog which only display some of my recipes...its nothing fancy, juzz my daily food...i had them written so i wont forget macamane nak masak sbb saya kadang2 nyanyuk!)

nway ive alwiz love to read n write poems n scribble my ideas on pieces of papers which eventually dah terbuang or ilang....i used to write in my diary..not on a daily basis, but when im too angry...or too sad...or too happy...its juzz my way of letting go of my anger n sorrow coz i dont like to mengadu kat org lain...coz i think that frens n family are sumtimes too quick to judge....i had one diary when i was in hi-school, and one when i was in uni...dua-dua pun saya bakar coz d thought of having strangers or even d ppl i know to read my thoughts is juzz like stripping myself naked!

im not very open person...saya suka berahsia....n ive not been writing for sumtime now coz skarang i finally have someone i can trust...tempat mengadu yg paling reliable! ehehe...i only share my thoughts with my beloved hubby now...in fact kalau ngn hubby mmg susah nak simpan rahsia... sampaikan kalo nak surprise him wiv gifts pun boleh terkantoi bagitau kat die..eheh...sume bende saya citer kat die coz i know dielah penyimpan rahsia yang paling boleh dipercayai! ehehe...watever secrets i tell him...stays with him...huhuh.... alhamdulillah i have such a great husband... walaupun baru 1year kahwin, we've known each other since 2002...still fresh in my mind d day dat we first met... maybe i'll write bout it in another post

now at the age of 25yrs i just feel that i have to write..i think alot...of d future, family, love, politics, food, health, wealth, economy, movies, travelling, entertainment..etc...i have no idea what are d topics that i might write here in my blog... but as for now i would imagine that i will remain anonymous to d readers... dat way i will feel more comfortable writing without fear of being judged by others!